Out with the old...

In with the...

OLD?

Coming home and blogging again has me running amok, fixin' things. Behold, my old pink template is back. If you hate it...Too damn bad. :P

Why Blog?

It's a sunny Saturday afternoon, and rather than enjoy the splendor of my hometown, I am inside, surfing the web. I looked up--and found--several teaching jobs this morning. I applied for those which I am qualified.*

But right now I'm taking a break, wondering why it is that I blog. What compels me to expose myself online?

Something in me just simply doesn't have enough to do, it seems.

I'm alone, but not lonely, and yet...Deathly bored.

Since returning home I've only gone for a walk once. How sad is that?!

If I was back in Toronto, my legs would be sore and I'd probably be taking a nap--I'd have tired myself out from one of my typical weekend walkabouts. Through Chinatown, Yorkville, Kensington Market, and on, and on, and on...

What was I saying...Why blog?

A part of me is lonely and, IMO, wants some attention. The other part is interested in making a valid contribution, if not through teaching, then through communicating.

* Which is, if you know me, harder than it sounds. In my heart and soul I long to teach--to make a genuine, meaningful contribution to society. There's nothing like job-hunting to make me wish that I could be all things to all people, i.e. a teacher who specialized in French (which I adore) or math (which I'm deathly afraid of).

Testing? Testing...

So today I started using Blogger for Word or Word for Blogger, or whatever it’s called. I’m a bit sceptical, yet very excited, as the fusion of MS Word and Blogger promises to be killer.

Will let you know if it’s worth it.

The heat is on....

What's been going on?

Well for starters, it's official. I'm a certified, professional, real-life, happy, soon-to be-employed teacher.

I can't wait to get a job. This gift--this occupation of mine--is an incredible blessing. I do not intend to waste it.

Earlier this week I had an interview. I didn't get the position. But I have absolutely no regrets. Post-interview, I received a special blessing that has given me hope. And ultimately, only God knows (literally) where I belong. I look forward to finding out where He wants me. :)

I also have to say that I appreciate the way He has transformed my thinking about my plight.

At the beginning of the summer I had a bit of anxiety regarding my destiny, but now....Virtually none.

I have no idea what will happen or where I'll end up working.

Oh sure, I have my dreams and desires. But their fulfillment is not up to me. The outcome of everything in my life is in the Lord's hands.

There are only two and a half weeks of August left. My time in Toronto officially ends then. And I want to stay. But I haven't made any plans. It's interesting to me, as it's been suggested that I visit different apartments, and inquire about leases.

In my opinion, that's pointless. *shrugs* What will I tell the landlords? That I'm going to pay them with imaginary money from my imaginary job? I don't need the stress...

Did you read that?! Sarcasm aside, those barbs are a clue regarding where my faith has brought me. Every now and then I feel worry attempt to tug at my mind and weaken my resolve. But God is building a forcefield(sp?) around me, and for that I am incredibly grateful. I'm passionate about my future. I'm excited, I'm curious....

But worried...?

No way.

(I feel as though God has released me from intense worry. It's been one of my demons.)

As the Wise One once said...Let tomorrow take care of itself.

Another reminder: Just because it's called a book...

That doesn't mean it's worth reading.